disheartened.

Dominique Feria. She's leaving me. 18 hours away leaving me.  I can't take it.  I'm so confused on how this could be the best thing for their family.  Well, really I guess I'm not.  Its just...its not the best thing for me. Selfish, I know. I go to bed upset and I wake up sad.  I'm in one of my depressed moods at the moment, which hardly happens.  But I'm going to camp in less than 7 days and when I get back she won't be here anymore.  I love Kanakuk.  It's just a little bit hard to be excited knowing that when I get home the house where I've spent hours and hours of my days will be empty. Without Makaio, Livi, and Kale'a.  Dominique is absolutely one of the most life filled, exciting, loving, accepting people I know.  She's pretty funny too. :)  She's one of my best friends ever and I wasn't expecting her to leave at all.  Two of my friends left me last year and I was very not so joyous then as well.  But for some reason they both ended up coming back.  Which is fantastic. Its just...I have a feeling its not going to be this way with the Ferias. Seems like when all is perfect, complete entirety begins to fall apart.   Everything inside of me wishes this was all a bad dream.    I can't wake up.